Right now I have great thoughts, great energy, but poor routines, and poor income. I need to change those latter two in order to be more productive and make more money in better ways. The money always comes; even though I have a constant cloud of worry for it. But my routines right now are trashy and unfit/unfitting. I drink, I smoke; I'm harming myself in passive ways that go against what I believe in; I am not moderating those things and so they need to change. But I don't like initiating a change when I don't have a maximal certainty that it is the right time and for the right reasons, hence, writing in here.
I have two options; the hard way and the easy way which may also be the harder way. When I change everything all at once I seem to have better luck than when i change just a little bit at a time. But the problem is that I don't have the certainty that I can change all these things at once but making small changes over time might confuse my mind from the purpose... But I think I shall try to make small changes, that is the decision.
So what will the change be? The potential for failure is my biggest hangup. I want to change my life significantly without changing everything at once. Perhaps the first step would be just to clean up. That sounds good. Recreate the work space; a cluttered desk is a cluttered mind. Therefore, a clean apartment should be a better start for a clean and happy future.
Huzzah, the journal does it again.