My day began as all days begin, feeling like shit with the world dumping even more on me. But today I was able to change things, a soul reversal. Let me explain.
Shit happened and I could not function. Staring at the blue screen of death with murder in my heart I decided I had two choices; either go back to bed or go to the store for a bit of alcohol and my OTC pills. I chose the latter, but I want to qualify that. I'm an adult and my choices are not always easy ones. But all I ever have to ask myself is this, "can I live with the consequences."
Yes. And sitting on a bench at a defunct bus station right across from a church in session I drank my booze and swallowed my pills. This is what followed.
I directed my attention to the smaller things with a kind of wonder at how early things are greening up this year due to climate change. It's cool and scary at the same time. I love these patches of tiny blue flowers, do they ever get put into bouquets? Are they unappreciated because they're tiny because it seems hard for me to miss their beauty, especially when they grow in patches. Could you imagine a huge whole field of these things?
Anyway, computer fucking up, I give up. I'll jusst keep trying more later.